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23 January 2025 @ 09:40 pm

I want to state some facts before you friend me, okay? Be civil and don't bring unneeded drama. If you defriend me I won't take it personally. This is my journal, and I feel I can post whatever I want in it, so I fangirl squee a lot; however that is the point of this journal since it's a fandom journal. Real life posts are on a different journal which is FO and by invite only. Commenting is not an issue for me.

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• I believe in Sherlock. Morairty was a liar.
• Watching Masterpiece Mystery is my favorite way to spend a Sunday night. I like Hercule Poirot, Miss Marple and Endeavour because of it.
• Into crime procedurals (mostly Elementary and Hawaii Five-0 when I catch repeats, plus Perception and Grimm when I remember)
• Into sci-fi/fantasy (mostly Eureka ::sob::, Warehouse 13, Sleepy Hollow and Doctor Who, where Eleven is my Doctor but Ten's pretty awesome, too)
• Into Joss Whedon's shows (to varying degrees: love Firefly and continue to watch "Serenity" frequently, have Doctor Horrible's Sing-Along Blog songs on my MP3 player and rewatch sometimes, prefer Angel over Buffy the Vampire Slayer but I still love both shows even though I don't rewatch very often, and eventually I'll watch S2 of Dollhouse).
• Into movies of the live action variety. The only ones you'll really see me writing fic for are the St. Trinian's series and the 2009 Star Trek reboot. I adore them to pieces. I might also try my hand at the Marvel movieverse. We'll see.
• Into The Hobbit and the Lord of the Rings trilogy (having taken a college course about them), and the movie versions are some of my favorite movies ever. Also a huge fan of the Harry Potter books, as well as the movies. Firm believer that the British do fantasy best.
• Favorite writers include David & Leigh Eddings, Amy Tan, Neil Gaiman and Mercedes Lackey; you might catch me writing The Elenium/The Tamuli or The Belgariad/The Mallorean or Tales of the Five Hundred Kingdoms fanfic every once in a while.
• Into comics, though I abhor the DC reboot after Flashpoint and am waiting for the next crisis to see if things go back to a way that makes me inclined to follow comics again. Favorite series is The Sandman, though I'm also very fond of Gotham Central and the old Birds of Prey as well. Favorite comic is The Question: Five Books of Blood. One of these days I may start reading Marvel. Related note: huge fan of the DCAU (Justice League Unlimited is my favorite) and the direct to DVD DC movies.
• Into manga, though it's mostly Bleach (before the Thousand Year Holy War arc in the manga), Zombie Loan, xxxHOLiC, The Wallflower (aka Yamatonadeshiko Shichihenge), Chibi Vampire, Shugo Chara!, The Tarot Cafe, Oh! My Goddess and Bizenghast. Also into anime, but that's mostly Bleach (subs, not dubs...hate the dubs), Zombie Loan, xxxHOLiC, Cowboy Bebop and a few others that I forgot.
• Former fandoms that I still mention/occasionally write fics for include the CSI franchise (yes, even Miami), Criminal Minds (it just hasn't been the same since Prentiss left), Supernatural (I kind of got back into it last season but I'm still really lost), Once Upon A Time (can't watch this season but I still love the show) and a few others floating around.
• Adore crossovers to pieces. Mostly active in the Wholock fandom (Sherlock/Amy is my OTP, don't hate on me for it). Also write other Doctor Who crossovers because it's the easiest most crossover-est show ever (and everybody could use a visit from the Doctor in my opinion), and Sherlock crossovers because all of a sudden I really like the idea of Sherlock meeting...well, everyone.

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22 November 2015 @ 01:42 pm
So this has been a rather...monumentally rotten year. And I know I haven't updated much here. I have been updating my Tumblr, though, and if you'd like the rundown of events that I will go into here at a later point, you can go through this tag for the highlights of what's happened so far. Be forewarned: it's pretty damn depressing.

Anyway, I re-simplified the wishlist I posted on Tumblr earlier in the month and I figured, if anyone is interested, I'd post it here as well. You know, just in case. I'm kind of worried my son's going to have a crap Christmas for reasons I discovered yesterday (involving him having to "earn" the solitary 13th birthday present he got last week from his foster family) so if anyone can help with these gifts 1 through 4 to make his Christmas brighter as well as mine, that'd be awesome.

So here's the list:

1. Amazon gift cards, so I can buy things off my son's and mine wish lists (I'm really good at hunting down deals on the Amazon Marketplace, and neither my son or I are picky about getting used items for gifts)
2. Walmart gift cards. He's kind of looking at Sally (a new kitten I rescued from a dog trying to attack it yesterday) as a late birthday/early Christmas gift, so having Walmart gift cards means I can use them to get cat food and cat litter, as well as food for his visits (he straight up ate half a loaf of bread and half a small jar of peanut butter in his visit ALONE yesterday in peanut butter sandwiches, and drank half a pitcher of strawberry lemonade as well)
3. Paying off at least part of his library fine so he can keep checking out library books (due to an incident with a book deemed "inappropriate" by his CPS worker which I just found out she has yesterday that I might not get back till who knows when, he's about to go over his overdue fines limit in less than a week, I think). You can pay the fines off online as long as the amount is at least $10. At the moment his fines are under $20, so he can still check things out, but once it goes over $20 he's locked out. Some are my fines, some of them are his from when I let him pick out DVDs and we'd unexpectedly switch visit days, some are books, so they're all different prices, but as long as it's at least $10 you can pay via credit card. I would need to give you the library website URL, his card number and PIN as well as instructions on how to pay, but we can do that via email or the PM system.
4. My son mentioned there's a video games he'd especially love, Hatsune Miku: Project Mirai DX for Nintendo 3DS, and that'd be awesome for him since I don't tend to get him newly released games because they're so expensive.
5. Fanworks made for me. I'm especially a huge fan of fanart made for fanfic of mine that doesn't have art/isn't inspired by art (and not just hand drawn art; fanmixes, digital art, collages...anything at all is perfectly fine), but if you want to write fic that's cool too!
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29 October 2015 @ 11:11 am
So I've been posting about this on Tumblr a lot (I'm over there a lot more then I'm on here...I lost my paid account about a year ago and I can't stand the ads, so I only pop on here to post my fic to communities, mostly), but I've been on temporary disability since February of this year with back issues. I'm probably going to end up having surgery as I've been doing physical therapy the last month or so and it's done nothing except make the pain worse.

Unfortunately, this last round of disability ended October 15th, and despite trying to reach out to my physician who has to renew it since the 18th of this month to get him to renew it, I've more or less been ignored. I have an appointment with him tomorrow, but if he submits my claim tomorrow electronically (or worse, makes me mail in the paper form) then I will not have the money to pay my rent on time and I will lose my apartment. I can't be homeless again. I just...I can't go through that hell again.

Right now I need $350 to cover my rent (that’s my share + the water bill, which is $44.59 and included in our rent; due no later than the 5th) and $25 for the car insurance (though I'm not as worried about that since we made a partial payment earlier with a donation we got this week). Over the last few months I've been offering up writing fic for donations. I've actually been doing quite a few of them; this is a listing of the completed works, the WIPs and the ones I have yet to start that I am continuously updating as I work on them. I'll make the same offer here with the updated word counts that I made on my last offer on Tumblr:

$10 to $25 donation - 5K to 6K words fanfic OR trilogy of 2K word fics, character(s)/pairing(s) of your choice
$26 to $50 donation - 7K to 8K words fanfic OR quartet of 2K word fics, character(s)/pairing(s) of your choice
$51 to $75 donation - 9K to 10K words fanfic OR quintet of 2K word fics, character(s)/pairing(s) of your choice
$76 to $100 donation - 15K+ words fanfic OR series with stories of word count of my choice (series length to be determined by donation), character(s)/pairing(s) of your choice
$101+ donation - 25K+ words fanfic OR series with stories of word count of my choice (series length to be determined by donation), character(s)/pairing(s) of your choice

My primary fandom is Sherlock (and my primary ships are Sherlolly, Mythea and the femmeslash ships), though I am offering to also write Elementary, Doctor Who, Star Trek (Alternate Original Series) and some Marvel Cinematic Universe (mainly Captain America, first Avengers movie and first season of Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D.). Other fandoms I have been known to write can be discussed, depending on the length of fic and characters you want involved. Crossovers are also up for discussion.

To request a fic, all you have to do is send me a message via messenger here on LJ with how much you donated, your prompt, which pairings/characters you want involved and the highest rating you want (the highest I will go for these will be Teen for the most part, though we can discuss that changing on a case by case basis, though absolutely NO explicit fic). I write almost all genres (including AUs, especially for Sherlock) and I love discussing prompts to make sure we’re both happy. If you have an AO3 username, I’ll ask for that as well so I can gift the fic to you there.

Spreading the word for this will also get you fic, with a 1K to 2K fic. All you have to do is show me the link where you posted about it. Please, spread the word and donate if you can.

You can donate here.
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08 June 2015 @ 10:21 am
So today is the 8th, and it’s today that I’m starting to panic. I’ve been having health problems that have prevented me from working since January of this year, and I had an MRI last month that showed I have a problem with the sciatic nerve in my back. I had been on temporary disability and been able to keep afloat for a while but unfortunately due to some serious lapses in communication between people at the public clinic I go to for my health care, I was not able to renew my disability insurance in time and I had to reapply on the 1st of this month. It has been a week and there is no indication that they have even started processing the claim yet. I have until the 16th to come up with $700 to pay my rent or I will lose the apartment I have been living in, which means I will lose any hope of having housing for my son Trace, who I have been trying to regain custody of since 2005. We need to keep this apartment. It isn’t much, just a one bedroom, but it’s a roof over our heads.

Today would also be the day I would normally get my monthly allotment of food stamps. Last month was my reporting month, and my local welfare office did not send me my SAR-7 form at the beginning of the month to report my income to them, so the first I heard about it was when they told me my food stamps would be terminated on 5/31/15. I got the form and turned it in with all the proof they needed as soon as I got the notice (5/16/15) but have heard nothing since about whether it was going to still be cancelled or not, and so now on top of worrying about keeping a roof over my head I now also have to worry about having food to eat, as our refrigerator and pantry are shockingly bare at the moment.

I do not want to ask for money without offering anything in return. Tumblr user ladysolitaireoftheswanstn donated money the last time I asked for donations and is currently the recipient of the WIP “No More Regrets” for her donation (and she is actually getting a longer story than what she got with her donation because it took a while for me to write it since I was suffering from depression at the time she made her donation and had no motivation to write). I had a huge scale of how much I would write depending on how much was donated, but I’d decided to make it a bit broader this time:

* Sharing this post: 1K word story, characters/pairings & fandom(s) of your choice
* $10 - $50 donation: 3K word story, characters/pairings & fandom(s) of your choice, with potential for being longer or turned into a series
* $51 - $100: 5K word story, characters/pairings & fandom(s) of your choice, with potential of being longer or turned into a series
* $101 - $250: 10K word story, characters/pairings & fandom(s) of your choice, with potential of being longer or turned into a series
* $250 and up: 25K word story, characters/pairings & fandom(s) of your choice, with potential of being longer or turned into a series

I primarily write Sherlock, and in that fandom my main ship is Sherlolly, but I will write any non-incest ship you can think of because I honestly ship almost everything you can imagine for that show whether it’s het, slash or femmeslash. I’m fluid on ratings but for this no explicit stuff. I also cross over Sherlock with Elementary, Doctor Who, Star Trek (Alternate Original Series) and am willing to cross it over with Supernatural and the Marvel Cinematic Universe as well. Any combinations of those fandoms are acceptable, BTW, even if Sherlock isn’t involved, as are those fandoms on their own. I have a few restrictions just based on my knowledge of canon, but we can discuss that via PM or comments to this post. If you have an AO3 account tell me the username and I will gift the fic for you there, otherwise I will message you on Tumblr when it is posted.

We have an ongoing fundraiser here that you can donate to. Please, take advantage of the fic offer for sharing this post and making donations. I love to write and since I am unable to work while I wait to get my care continued (which at the moment appears to possibly be physical therapy and back surgery) I have nothing but time on my hands. Thank you in advance for any help you can give.
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09 May 2015 @ 10:04 pm
Figured since it's been forever since I really updated, I should do a State of the Ragna Address in the form of a survey. So...here you go!

1) Sexuality? Asexual. It's something I started to realize last year and then confirmed to my friends and family earlier this year. I could possibly be demisexual, but since I haven't been in a relationship since 2002 I'm not entirely sure.
2) If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? That would still be Benedict Cumberbatch first off. If not him? Mark Gatiss. I've come to realize he's written most of my favorite Sherlock and Doctor Who episodes over the years and I want to pick his brain.
3) Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17. My actual nearest book (A Field Guide to Demons, Fairies, Fallen Angels and Other Subversive Spirits by Carol K. Mack and Dinah Mack) didn't have seventeen lines on page 23, so I chose another book at random (The Hot Zone by Jayne Castle). The line was “His rich, well-modulated voice reflected his social status.”
4) What do you think about most? Money issues.
5) What does your latest text message from someone else say? Not counting tweets from a celebrity's feed/account balances/alerts from my phone company, it was “I will be done early because I cannot do the lab” from my mom a little over a week ago when we were at her college and I was in the library.
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18 February 2015 @ 12:51 pm

It's been forever and a day since I posted here, and a lot has gone on in my life. Some of it has been good, but unfortunately there have been a lot of things that haven't been so pleasant, either. And I would like to ask for all of your help, if you can.

My son Trace is the light of my life. He’s the best kid I ever could have asked for. He’s smart, he’s kind, he’s funny, he’s polite, he loves his Mom and his Nana and his Aunt Jombi and he’s just really a good person. He’s also been in foster care in the county of San Diego for nine years now. I lost custody in August of 2005 thanks to having undiagnosed post-partum depression and misdiagnosed bipolar disorder that left me unable to care for my son. The first year and a half he was out of my custody I did everything I could do to regain custody, and I was very close. I had sixteen hours a week unsupervised visitation, and I was about to start overnights. And then, because of a CPS worker who didn’t care about her clients and a family who wanted to adopt him, it all got taken away. I dropped down to two hours a week supervised visitation based on lies that my CPS worker never bothered to check, and any chance I’d had for getting him back at the time vanished. The CPS worker eventually left the case and he was pulled out of the foster home for neglect (though I do suspect there was more to it than that) but the damage was done.

Since then my son has been in two group homes and two foster care placements. He has adapted well, and considering he’s autistic that’s saying a lot. He’s learned to channel his anger into positive ways of coping, he’s strengthened his bond with his family, he’s forged new bonds with the workers who help him and the families he’s lived with. If you met him on the street you’d think he was a pretty normal child, and that’s the best thing in the world. He had especially formed a bond with one foster father, but due to things I am not at liberty to talk about he was removed from the foster home and ended up in a psychiatric ward for a week because he was suicidal. After having a worker who didn’t answer her calls we got a new worker who, for the first time in seven years, made it a point to talk to me and my mother. She found out both of us were stable and on our psych meds (my mother is also bipolar). She visited our home, something no social worker had done since my visitation had been cut to supervised and for only two hours. But most importantly, she told us that she thought it would be best if Trace came back to live with us. She has been the first worker in nearly ten years to give us hope. Over the years I’ve fought for unsupervised visitation, then off-site visitation, and then visitation at my home and gotten all of those things. The next step is overnights, and we are so very close to that, which was never even an option before.

At the moment my mother and I share a one bedroom apartment in north San Diego county. My son would be occupying the living room while she and I share the bedroom. It’s not a perfect arrangement, but the CPS worker has approved it as a suitable living situation. However, a problem has arisen. In August 2014 I had gallbladder surgery, and complications have left me with lingering health issues. I had recently left my part time job at an amusement park to work full time at a call center, but due to the complications I ended up missing too much time and lost my job. My mother’s disability checks and my final paycheck are not enough to cover our rent, and if it is not paid in full by the 15th we will be evicted. If we lose the apartment I can pretty much kiss goodbye any chance of reunification because with an eviction on my record no one will rent me an apartment. I have been on the Section 8 Housing waiting list for six years, and was recently told it is now eight to ten years until housing is available (to put this in perspective, when I went on the waiting list I was told three to five years). If I lose this home my family’s dream of being reunited will be dashed permanently. In six years my son will age out of the system and only then will we be able to live together again. My son wants his family back, and my mother and I want that too. Most families give up after two years without reunification; we’ve been working for it for nine and we’re not willing to give up on Trace.

We have a fundraising campaign here to help us come up with the money we need to pay some important bills this month while I continue to find employment elsewhere. We've paid most of them, including the rent, but the other problem is I am having a very tough time finding employment. I keep getting called to interviews and nothing pans out, and health issues are making things hard as well. I need to be able to support my family and get my son back. He’s the light of my life and I miss him every day that he’s not with me. When I do get to see him it’s the best day of the week. So I ask for your help. Please donate. Even $10 will help so much. And if you can’t donate, then please reblog this and spread the word. Share it on social media, on Facebook and Twitter and anywhere you can think of. My son deserves to have his fondest wish and we are so close to making that happen but if we lose this apartment that wish will never be granted. So please, #HelpTraceComeHome. Thank you so much in advance.
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16 June 2014 @ 02:52 pm
So it's done. I had a migraine this morning so I took a sick day and once it was gone I went to work on the Angsty Fic O'Doom. Chapter 10 is fairly short, a little under four complete pages, but now that it's written I am officially finished with the story. Honestly, once I post it I'm not sure I ever want to reread it. It is the most depressing thing I have ever written. I may make a solemn vow to the Sherlock fandom I'll never do this to them again.

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I have whittled down my fic writing deadlines to three big bangs, so yay for that. Finally, less deadlines to have headaches over. Here's the lowdown on where I stand with them:

The scifibigbang Khan/Molly fic I started a week ago...Collapse )
The Angsty Fic O"Doom for bigbang_mixup and my desire to get it over and done with...Collapse )
The long gestating "The Snowmen" rewrite that I was going to do for journeystory last year which is now my casestory fic...Collapse )

Speaking of fic, I've been glancing at some of my fic on AO3 and (apparently) I have two other stories nearing the 3K hits mark, which was quite surprising to realize. One day when I have more internet time I'm going to comb through my AO3 account and do a massive repost of all my Sherlock fanfic which has 2K hits or higher, which I think is around 30 stories? Just because I want to brag. Unsurprisingly they are mostly Sherlock/Molly fics, but there's a couple Sherlock/Irene popping up as well. So this will be fun going through at least 249 stories and going "Dear God, how is that popular?" because, you know, I write a lot for that fandom. Which reminds me, eventually I will post all the Sherlock and Elementary fanfic I posted over the last few weeks for the land_deduction Bingo challenge. Because I really did write over 24K worth of fic for that challenge in the span of a month because I'm crazy. ::nods:: 11 of the 24 stories got written in a week, so some of them are crap and a couple are really favorites of mine. The "Molly gets drugged and calls Sherlock for help" story in particular got what feels like a million kudos in forty-eight hours and that surprised the hell out of me.

Also! I am starting to put serious work in on what I hope will be a really interesting original fiction series. One day I will convert my Wholock fanfic into an original novel, but at the moment I'm plotting out a series called "Bartenders Of The Apocalypse" about a war between Heaven, Hell and humanity/otherwordly creatures where the latter won. Now the demon who defected from Hell and rallied together the humans and the otherwordly creatures owns a bar and the series follows him and his staff as they navigate supposedly peaceful times with another revolt on the horizon as well as the possibility of an entire other apocalypse (Ragnarok this time). But seriously, it's an "ALL FOLKLORE IS TRUE!" and "ALL MYTHOLOGY IS TRUE!" series and I can't wait to finish these big bangs so I can start writing it. I'm hoping I can have the first novel finished in a few months and see about getting it self-published as an e-book. I will be so happy if I can and it's marginally popular.

So yeah. I've been a busy busy writer in the last month or so, but hopefully I can get these last fic commitments out of the way and then devote a huge chunk of time to my original novel. Someday soon, I will be famous as a novelist and I can do what I love for a living. Someday...
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01 May 2014 @ 06:18 pm
Sorry it's not much of a post. The only reason I'm online is I need to get my paystubs for my food stamps report and I figured I'd do this to make my fans happy. I have a headache and life sucks right now. Anyway, I may have stayed up really late writing more of my WIP last night? Maybe? Here's the new chapters.

As Long As You Love Me Truly (9 - 11/?) | Sherlock - PG so far | Sherlock Holmes/Molly Hooper, Henry Knight, Greg Lestrade, Irene Adler and John Watson in these chapters | All Molly Hooper wants to do is get her big break on the London stage. She might have a chance when she's asked to be the lead in one of the most anticipated productions on the West End, and by the star himself, Sherlock Holmes. But things don't exactly go according to the plan she had in her head of how she would become a well known actress, and as time goes on she needs to figure out whether she wants fame or whether she wants something more fulfilling.
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My Molly app got approved last night so I'm having fun with her in game. Mary Morstan is in game but from after the finale where Molly's from post-"The Empty Hearse" since I watched the first few minutes of Sherlock in the library yesterday and ended up muttering "Sherlock, you arrogant asshole" and realized I was probably going to do that through both episodes so it was best if I watch them at home. But yay for getting to write Molly outside of fic! This pleases me.

Also I wrote a lot of fic over the last...week or so, and here it all is. Got a bit preoccupied today with finishing a bunch of half-finished stories today so there's a lot of stuff. Yay for motivation!

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